Lucian And Darkki

New rat in the family. She is a 6-8 week old little gray poofball. She is adorable. :B

“Home is not where you live, but where they understand you.”

“Home is the place where it feels right to walk around without shoes.”

“Home is where the heart is.”

Home is in Kansas. Kansas has felt more like a home than New Jersey ever has to me. Staying in hotels and motels seems more like home than my bedroom. Home is truly where my heart is and my heart is in Kansas. I don’t know if it is because that is where my mate is or if just because to me, the area is so beautifully perfect… Probably a combination of both.

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At 6:40 we will put her down. She is nearly two years old I believe the cancer has spread through her whole body and she now has a growth coming from her private parts. I can’t see her like this anymore..I think it is her time…

So, I decided I am gonna do my OWN review of Repo! Shameless plugging I guess.

I heard this opera plugged at the end of the Saw V commercial. I like the Saw films so I figured I would check it out. I went to the site, started watching the trailers and I was interested. I was a bit turned off when I saw Paris Hilton on the cast but I figured it was such a neat idea I would check it out anyway. While waiting for my copy to finish downloading (before you complain I went out and bought it too) I browsed around the site. I watched the three scenes from the movie they have up and was still rather interested. I was surprised at Hilton’s acting and singing during Zydrate Anatomy (probably the catchiest song) and my hopes got higher. I was afraid however that these now highly publicized people would let this amazing idea crash and burn. I went into the movie, unsure of what was to come even after seeing the clips. People tend to show their best side first, right?

I was amazed. This movie is pure brilliance. It flows perfectly from one song to the next. Definately “Not your parents opera” as the directors have proclaimed. The characters were amazing, each with their own personality and storyline. The songs were extremely well-written and did not dissappoint. The execution was flawless, the story was captivating and interesting and held me until the end. My only upset is the fact you never learn what happens to Shilo. Oh well, sequel please?

I’ve watched the movie twice already (in two days) and I would love to watch it again in the near future. The soundtrack has been playing nonstop on my iPod since I recieved it on Sunday. There are songs on the CD that were not included in the movie that I wish were included but, oh well.

For a movie without a Holywoof budget, the 9 year project was totally worth it. Repo! The Genetic Opera gets a Infinity out of 10 from me.

Last night I had a dream, this dream still bothers me, nearly 12 hours after waking. Basically, I got vicious pains in my stomach area, and then there was a lot of blood. I had a miscarriage. I can still see the partially formed child that cam out in the bloody mess. It still haunts me. I want to believe this dream means something (as in I’m pregnant and if I am not careful that will happen) but, I know it just stems from my desire to have a family. Though, I was not thinking or worrying about a miscarriage really, just deeply disappointed that I am not with child.

http://www.visembryo.com/baby/17.html It basically looked like that.

Everyone but me it seems… Not even trying.. Didn’t even want…. Just shows how un-fuckin-fair life is.

http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/americas/7817078.stm

Some of the comments deeply upset me. Since my comment will most likely not be posted there I am gonna say it here, it will reach less people but it will be out there anyway. Yes she signed a contract, I understand that however, she went over there and served her time already. Being someone who knows what it is like to go through that, and what comes of  it, it’s hard to read some of these comments. I was one of the lucky ones, I had my mate go over, we do not have any kids yet, he was in a relatively safe-zone, and we talked almost every day. However, I am still deeply scarred by the event and I am slowly trying to get over it. It is extremely hard for me, I can only imagine what her family went through. She has a husband and children. I can only feel for the family. I can only imagine what it is like everyday for that husband, wondering if his wife will come home to their kids, wondering if he will have to tell his kids Mommy died for our country. However, if she were go over there and die. It would not be a noble and valiant death. It would not be a death of honor or for the country. On the contrary her death would be a heart-wrentchingly painful one. This woman was fighting something she did not believe in and did not support. Maybe she did when she joined but first hand experience changes everything. Maybe she witnessed things, horrible, horrific things that changed her mind about everything. If she were forced over there and to die, this woman would be in constant torment where ever her soul went, and I hope it would go to Heaven to grant her even a little peace about what had happened. She would have died for nothing, in my opinion. Dying for a cause you do not support or do no believe in is not a death that helps anything. It is an unessecary death that only causes torment and pain in the knowing that it was for nothing. I hope people will reach out their voices in Canada to the government and allow her to stay like they did the others. She has a family to look out for. She have kids and a husband who need her. Also, the people who saying she is only going to prison for like a year, she is going to a military prison. The same rules and regulations do not apply. You are not a human there, you are nothing. It’s impossible for any civilian to imagine but from what my mate has told me, it is nothing like a normal prison. So for those people, you are ignorant. That is not your fault, you do not know but that is the truth. Going to that, is not a nice little field trip a normal prison can be. It’s not even comparable. Please, I wish people would show some compassion nowadays. People are so strict, so hard-assed about caring about only themselves and sticking to the narrow path of what is stated and been done. Sticking to the path that they know will cause them no trouble. They refuse to open their mouthes, to speak up, to show love, compassion, to show some basic human emotion to others. She needs to stay in Canada, as do the others who flee for reasons such as hers. This is morally wrong in my heart. I wish her the best of luck in whatever happens to her and her family…

Well, not really. I got out of school due to having a low grade fever and hives, ALL over my body. We don’t know what caused it though my ma an the nurse are assuming that it is due to an allergic reaction to my UTI medication even though I took my last pill today and have been taking it for the past 10.

Who knows. Buy me zoids to make me better? ;D

Minty and Skittle, well, mostly Minty want to wish you a Merry Christmas!

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