Lucian And Darkki

Minty and Skittle, well, mostly Minty want to wish you a Merry Christmas!

Art by  http://www.furaffinity.net/user/dankesque

I got accepted into University of Tennessee! HURRAH!

http://www.nj.com/south/index.ssf/20…_among_do.html

So, Mr. A got arrested for child pornography. I cannot believe it. This is NOT the type of guy to do anything like that. He is an amazingly nice guy who is just totally awesome. I cannot see this. I honestly believe he is taking the fall for his son. Mr. A is just too…Just, I have no words for it. Nothing to say. I am so dumbfounded so… Speechless. It’s unreal. He is a simply amazing man. He spoke at my NHS induction ceremony and nearly brought me to tears. I cannot see this man doing this. Nor can any of the other teachers. As I said before, many of us believe he is covering for his son since he is just the type of guy to do that. Take the fall so that someone else doesn’t have to. To make sure you are ok, to make sure that everything is alright.

Watching Secret Millionaire made me really realize all I want to do is help people. I want to make an impact. I know I can’t the whole world but if I can change one life, that is enough. I’ve wanted to help in a homeless shelter for the longest time but being with out a car makes it hard for me to have a decent ride to Philly and back and I do not know if there is any place near by. I really want to help people and it makes me doubt becoming an ACO, K9 officer or detective and becoming a social worker or something. I want to help people less fortunate than me because they can be some of the most amazing people, and I have known that through a few people I have met. I really want to help… I just dunno what I can do.

The static, the noises, the way he answered the phone, everything. It hit me like a bus. Just like when he was over there. It’s just like when he was over there. I somehow held myself together until he hung up the phone. Just like when he was over there… I broke down. I had the first anxiety attack I’ve had in a long while. Just like a bus, nailing me where it hurts.

It’s gonna be a long night…

Current Mood: Alarmed

Lately there is way to much happening at the same time.  I’m about to be out of the loop for a couple days for training.  With that going on Lucian got kicked out of her house shortly before and I’m trying to get Christmas ready, my trip home, finish my CSS book (which isn’t really the top of my list), study for a work thing in Janu… January (I think that’s right) and get back into college.  It’s just so overwhelming right now.  I’m glad Lucian is back at her house.  I know she’s not happy with it, but I was certainly not happy with her bumming a place to stay everynight.  With Vicky I’m cool, but aside from that I don’t know anyone else there that well and I’m not that trusting.  I’d also really like it if she would improve her relationship with her parents.  She can be so short with them.  I guess no one ever likes there parents when they are living with them under 18.  It’s like living in Soviet Russia, or some witty comparison like that.  Oh well.  Hopefully things will improve for her and I’ll visit and we’ll go out and she can relax with me.  Just a few months and she can move out if she wants and I can take care of her.  I’m trying to get back into college right now for my Microsoft Certified System Administrator.  While I’m doing that I’m finishing up this CSS book… well I’m half way, so not finishing up, but I’m working on it.  Then once that’s done I’m starting to study for CCNA and beyond.  Gotta get smart, so I can make that money.  I don’t think money is so important, but it certainly is nice.  Nicer than money is responsibility and working with technology, and nicer than anything is Mate.  Anyhow, back to my CSS, just a lil update for now.  Peace.

My step dad is gonna HATE me and my mate when:

1) I get married at 18

2) I refuse to go anywhere other than UT

3) I become an ACO.

I could keep going.

I’m back at the house but not because I want to. My mom is acting like nothing happened. I am getting no apology or anything. She is even getting a dick attitude me still. I’m only back because:

1) Darkki begged me to go back.

2) My rats. I missed them so much.

So, I got kicked out of my house yesterday. My mom saw my legs and started demanding me to shave them. When I demanded a logical reason, the only one she gave me was because I said so. Not good enough. So my mom tried to take my laptop. When I pushed her away she wrestled me to the bed and strangled me. I got the marks to prove it. Then she proceeds to kick me from the house.

Now this morning I asked for my phone (can’t get it) and was getting some clothes. She started demanding I change there and when I refused she began to spew lies, getting pissed when I proved her wrong. This all ended with her slamming the door to my back.

I talked to the consular at school today who called my mom. My mom pulled the sweet act saying we were both wrong, that we needed some time to cool off and that she wanted me back. And oh, to come feed my rats. Apparently she won’t feed them. Which I know is BS. She loves those squeaks (not as much as I do) but she wouldn’t dare hurt an animal.

I have really nice friends too. Everyone trying to help me and offer me rooms and all. Mwee. <3