Lucian And Darkki

I’m the one who is trying and failing. Ehy? How come those who aren’t even trying succeed? Why why? Please tell me why…

He came early Friday morning around 2AM. On Friday we went to Tasho’s after running around a bit and getting a few things. However, we had to go home and babysit that night. I am upset at myself for being so pissy at it. I should have embraced the time with my mate but like an idiot I was just being a pissy bitch. On Saturday we went back to Tasho’s and then went to the Jersey Shore to spend some time at Appy’s with a group of furs. We played a lot with Peachy and Ruka, Appy’s two little girly rats who are much like Romeo and MoMo. We spent the night at a motel before returning on Sunday. We came back on Sunday night around 8 and just hung around the house. Monday morning we went out to eat and then came back and he had to leave.

Looking back, it wasn’t a lot of time nor did it feel like enough time. Everytime he comes I feel we never have enough time with one another or enough time to do everything. However, I believe that our entire lifetime will not be enough time together. *sighs* It needs to be December. I spent last night crying myself to sleep and missing him…

Going to bed alone tonight is gonna be rough… I miss him already and he only left about 2-2 and a half hours ago yet it seems like forever…

I may or may not be living at my house come Friday-Monday. If I still am (which I don’t want to anymore, I’m sick of this abuse) I will be leaving the moment I turn 18.

Only I in one outting to Barnes and Nobles would by a book on serial killers and a Bible.

So, I don’t had school for the rest of this week. Gonna be so bored. Possibly gonna try to hang out at Tasho’s place for a day or two other than Friday to give myself something to do and to get out since I will go stirr crazy just sitting here. As mate said, I get to see him next week. Not sure what is going to happen. I will probably bring him to Tasho’s on Friday and maybe go up to Aperature’s thing that weekend. I dunno, I don’t really want to spend time with other people when mate is here. We rarely see eachother and I want us time. So, who knows what will happen. So close though! Murr, I really can’t wait to be with my love again.

Also, seems like a lot of people are getting married…

So like, I haven’t posted in forever.  Anyhow, I’m in Texas (work related).  Texas, is as boring, as Kansas.  Although, if I had brought my Jeep I’m sure I could have had more fun.  I’ve got a little Mazda 3.  I would strongly suggest no one gets a Mazda 3.  I mean, it’s not a bad car, but… it’s not good.  It doesn’t impress me at all, though it has intermittent wipers, BONUS!  I put some money in the stock market.  400 dollars in Fannie Mae.  Would have been great if the bailout passed.  I bought in at around 2.06 and the stock had rose to 2.64 in less than an hour… right before they original bailout plan was denied by congress, then poof, gone in minutes.  I’m holding onto it though, hopefully it will recover enough so I can get away without a loss.  I’m sure if I hold on long enough to it, it’ll recover.  I was really hoping to use the money for Christmas shopping.  I swear I’ve watched the first 4 seasons of Family Guy atleast 5 times.  Recently my Zune has started to need reset.  If you have a Zune, remember “Up + Back + 10 Seconds = Reset”.  It’s like Ctrl+Alt+Del.  I made friends with a co-worker out here, looks like he’s getting a Jeep now.  I’ve been shopping around with him.  Aside from all that, not much going on.  Got a new phone case for my Sidekick Slide (Foxxie and Crest just bought them too, right after me… now mine feels unspecial).  It’s RealTree.  I feel like a much better country boy now.  Just need to get a cowboy hat while I’m here.  Less than two weeks, and I’ll be with the mate.  Can’t wait to be with my love again.  That’s most of what’s going on these days.  Peace out.