I am sick of being called an idiot for believing in something. I’m sick of being looked down for my beliefs. It hasn’t even been two weeks yet and I am already feeling the heavy hand of others on my faith. I pray every night for the strength to be able to deal with them but it is hard, even when it isn’t even directed on me. God didn’t create all this hate and all these fanatics, He didn’t create this. People did. Jesus came to preach hope, love, and unity. Not what is going on with people killing each other in the name of what they believe. He didn’t want this. Yet, we go through it, going against His words and His love, proclaiming it is all in His name. He gave us free will for a reason. He did not force Himself on us for a reason. It makes me heavy in the heart to look at the world. To look at people fighting over who is right and who is wrong. To look at people calling people stupid for believing in something. Why is it so wrong to believe? Why? I want to know why? I am not a stupid person. I like to believe I am an intelligent person, bound to go places yet to some people my faith makes me an idiot. I am an idiot for simply believing in something. Why? It is not blind faith. Not in my mind. I do not denounce science. I do not denounce evolution or anything and I still believe. Why? Just why?
“I agree. As a christian myself, I can safely say religious debates are pointless, simply because there are people who are stupid (theists) and people who aren’t as stupid, or at least not in the same way (atheists).”
The person who wrote the above statement did not add in the parathesized words, someone else did proclaiming it was an improved edit. I have been a Christian for a WEEK and I can already see how annoying this is going to be dealing with childish and immature people like this. I do not push my beliefs down your throat and I will never let people push them down mine. People who call me stupid anger me greatly because I do not do the same thing to them for believing (or not believing) in what they do. How can they call me an idiot because I believe in something? *sighs* I see this will be a long, hard road when it comes to these kind of people and there are a lot of them in fandom. I have met plenty of stupid theists and atheists and plenty of smart ones for both to. Just because someone believes in something does not make them stupid.
After finding God and Jesus I have felt so much, lighter. There has been a huge load lifted off my shoulders. While I still get my depressed moments and all I generally feel happier and more loving, more open. It’s amazing how I feel.
So, I dug out an old cross necklace I was given a long time ago. When I went to take it out, the chain snapped leaving me the cross. I don’t know why but for some reason I feel that chain breaking is symbolic and it will show itself to me recently. I have since put that cross on my dogtags and I’ve begin to pray. It’s still awkward for me, talking to God and all. I have yet to really see why Jesus seems to be more important than God himself. Yes I know he is God’s son, a messenger, our savior and the like but he was our mentor and God was his mentor, therefore, shouldn’t Jesus be second to God. It is even stated he is his right hand man. I don’t know. My friend (who I have been going to a lot when it comes to this stuff) and I are wondering the same thing so who knows what the answer will be.
I’m still trying to figure a lot of stuff out spiritually. I really need to get away for a bit to the middle of nowhere to really get some me time… It won’t be for a long time before I can get this though.
So after dinner I am trying to put stuff away and all and my lil bro opens the fridge after pushing by me, knocking the tomatoes I had onto the floor. I say GOD DAMMIT CHRIS LOOK BEFORE YOU OPEN THE DOOR! and get yelled at for saying god dammit by my mother.
Now, I can understand being yelled at for cursing if my lil bros did too. However, they say fuck you, give me the finger, fuck this, fuck that, you bastard, you bitch, you asshole and everything else. Yet, never get yelled at for it. So, where is the issue here? I am nearly an adult, almost 18 (well, kinda) and my lil bros are 9 and 10. Where is the logic in this?
You could have bowed out gracefully
But you didn’t
You knew enough to know to leave well enough alone
But you wouldn’t
I drive myself crazy trying to stay out of my own way
The messes that i made
But my secrets are so safe
The only one who gets me
Yeah, you get me
It’s amazing to me
How every day
every day
every day
You save my life
I come around all broken down and crowded out
And you’re comfort
Sometimes the place I go is so deep and dark and desperate
I don’t know
I don’t know
How every day
every day
every day
You save my life
Sometimes I swear I don’t know if I am coming or going
But you always say something without even knowing
That I am hanging onto your words with all my might
And it’s alright
Yeah I am alright
For one more night
Every day
Every day
Every day
Every Every Every day
You save me
You save me oh oh oh oh
Na na na na na na-ah
Every day
Every day
Every day
You save my life
This one is for you, Vikki
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I’ve been meaning to post this for a long time but never got around to it.
All country sounds familiar to me. Not like in a bad it all sounds a like before but like I’ve heard the song somewhere before. It’s such an amazing thing I’ve never had such a connection with music before. I love it. It speaks to me.
Also, I’m getting annoyed by people saying I only like things cause my mate likes it or I only want it because he has it. Not the truth. He’s opened my eyes to things that I like and want/like because I ENJOY them.