Lucian And Darkki

April 18-20 I will be in Kansas, loving upon muh mate! Finally! After so long! I’m so excited!

I will not be online these days unless it is before I leave or after I get back. It will be ALL Darkki time.

Current Mood: Esctatic

Gotta love those car ride epiphanies, no? Anyway… I realized something in the car ride home from Phili, seein’ all the homeless folks.
I wanna change the world. I wanna show people there is still some love and some good in this world. When I see a homeless person I want to invite them to have a coffee with me and maybe a nice meal from the closest fast food joint or something. I’d rather do that than give them money since they can put money towards things like alcohol and drugs when they need food more than anythin’.
I want to spend my life helpin’ people, and animals. We are all brothers and sisters and others on this planet. I want to show people this. I want to spread the love.
I want flowers to sprout from my feet where ever I go, praisin’ mother earth and father rain for this life and all life. I want people to see the beauty this earth still holds to her children.
I want people to realize we are all Mother Earth and Father Rain’s children. We all need to look out for one another.
I want to know if ya can make a life, a livin’ off spreading love and joy to others less fortunate.
I want to be remembered to helping people and animals, for tryin’ to save the damned world.

Yea…I’m a bloody hippy. But I finally feel..peaceful inside I guess is the word. Amazin’ what a book and some thinkin’ can do, huh? I wish I could just explain in better words this enlightened feelin’ in me.

Shows like Future Weapons and any shows with similar concepts disgust me. Why? Just why do we need those things? We don’t need them. Why do we need to bring things that will bring more death and destruction than is already wrought in the world? It utterly disgusts me.

I say we ban weapons completely…Go back to sticks and stones…No swords, nothing…

You are my sunshine,
My only sunshine.
You make me happy,
When skies are gray.
You never know dear,
How much I love you.
So please don’t take my sunshine away.

I’m giving up on life for a little bit. I see no reason for me to get up outta bed anymore. I get up, sit on the computer and then go to sleep. I try to make plans but I am so sick of them getting fucked up or going wrong. I’m sick of this bullshit.

He fixes everything….

I used to HATE the rain.
Now I love it. It makes me happy. I love walking around getting wet by it. It reminds me of him. It tends to rain when we are together.
I hope it rains the weekend I see him again.
I hope it rains when we get married.
I hope it rains when our pups are born.
I hope it rains every happy day of our lives.
I love the rain…

Alright so I went to the Taste of Chaos tour at the Tweeter Center in Camden, NJ.
I must say I was the most colorful person there. I had a black cami on, my black and pink sparkley hippy skirt, my plaid shoes, my glowsticks on my dogtags, my paws for Skittle, my wolf ears, my big wolf tail made by Jax the Bat and my butterfly wings. After being assaulted by PETA while waiting to get in (I bitched them out, knocked their boxes over than proceeded to eat their pamphlet in a show of protest) I have decided to no longer buy Skelanimals stuff due to the fact the PETA people were sporting them and therefore they support PETA. Ugh. Anyway, we split into two lines, got searched and went in. We walked around, got free Rockstar (the punch kind tastes like Code Red) and bought some stuff. List of goodies comes later though. We walked to the other side, attacked the Tokyopop booth and all then went to our seats.

Striving for Better - SUCKED! They totally blew. Little did I know that one of my old co-workers was in the band. I met up with him later and just kinda laughed saying they were good and yadda yadda.

Idiot Pilots - Sucked.

American bands - Not too good in my opinion. All the side bands were HORRIBLE.

D’espairsRay - ROCKED! They were awesome. I totally enjoyed their show and their engrish.

MUCC - *squeeeeeeeeeeeeeak!* Oh yes. They were AMAZING. Tatusrou’s engrish was simply adorable. I broke out the glowsticks and raved to FUZZ and to my amusement some of the people in front of me started turning around to take pictures of me.

THE UNDERNEATH - Formerly known as Transic Nerve, were meh. I left during their show to go wait in the signing line.

I left around 7-ish to go wait in the line to get autographs from the Jrock bands. I was about 5th in the line which surprised me considering the signing was at 8. I met a lot of cool people whom I wish I had gotten contact info from. We pitzed around, I stole some free posters since they decided to put the pile close enough to me that I could reach under the bars and take them since none of us wanted to wait until the signing to get them. I also snagged a nice MUCC poster. So I went through the signing line with a lot of the guys pointing at me, calling my kawaii and all. D’espairsRay noticed their undies on my head and I brought I picture of my from Otakon ‘06 where I had met MUCC before. They remembered me which isn’t too much of a feat. Anyway, I went back in with my friends for a bit before coming back, getting in line again and getting a poster for Diana since she got me my ticket, had her dad drive me there, etc. I got hugs from EVERYONE this time around. Tatsurou is a very huggy person I might add.

Went back in and sat for a bit, didn’t like the music much so I wandered around and stayed with some of the friends I had met. During AX7 (don’t kill me if I got that wrong) I had to leave during the song about the war. My mental unstability is quite bad when it came to that. I just sat outside IMing my mate and some friends before going back inside and chatting with the artist who had a table there.
All in all it was a great concert and I had fun and enjoyed it! I had my picture take a couple times. I shall get them online if I find them.

Merchandise List:
Two MUCC shirts. (I owe Bob $20 cause of the one).
D’espairsRay undies!
Autographed poster from the concert autographed by THE UNDERNEATH, D’espairsRay and MUCC
Free MUCC poster
Lotsa free….stuff. I ended up throwing about some crap.

EDIT: Updated version
Official News Story (Updated story!)
Shaun was killed by a single stab wound, not multiple like I had been told earlier. It was a group of 5 kids who waited for Will and then proceeded to assault him for selling someone Shaun knew (I was told it was not his girlfriend but someone else) coke with crushed pills in it, his dog’s meds apparently. Shaun was stabbed at the beginning of the fight but his friends thought he had just broken a rib or so when he asked them to take him to the hospital. The knife was either knocked out or dropped from Will’s hands and he proceeded to scream help as the rest of the gang pummeled him before realizing what had happened to Shaun.
Despite a rumor around my school there IS a self-defense law as shown by my mate. Here is is directly quoted: 2C:3-9, the use of force upon or toward another person is justifiable when the actor reasonably believes that such force is immediately necessary for the purpose of protecting himself against the use of unlawful force by such other person on the present occasion.
Now, I do not believe Shaun deserved to be killed but dealing with drugs and all, he had it coming. He coulda let the situation blow over and what-not. I have been told a couple of the kids did not even do the drugs but went to ‘prove their manliness’ lovely isn’t it? This was a result of stupidity. Now, I am on NEITHER side of this fight though people shouldn’t be really taking sides. The facts are the facts. Will acted in self-defense against 5 guys who ganged up and attacked him and is getting off on no charges like he should. End of story.

Opening Credits:
No Text - BY-SEXUAL

Waking Up:
Shinkei ga Wareru Atsui Yoru - PIERROT

First Day at School:
nam ning lai luek - Silly Fools

Falling in Love:
Magnet Holic - PIERROT

Fight Song:
What’s Up Mr. Jones - Zilch

Breaking Up:
Dance Dance - Tune Up! feat. Andy Lopez

Prom:
Out of Space (Audio Bullys Remix) - The Prodigy

Prom night (if you know what I mean):
Coral’s Tear - Silver Ash

Mental Breakdown:
So Bad Boy - BY-SEXUAL

Driving:
Train Wrecks - Adhamh Roland (LMAO!)

Flashback:
Follow me - Happy Hardcore

Getting Back Together:
MILLENIUM - Luna Sea

Wedding:
For You - SADS

Birth of Child:
Binetsu - SID

Final Battle:
Dr. Online - Zeromancer

Death Scene:
All the Way -Mike Koglin & Mark Pledger

Funeral Song:
haruka naru daichi e no sanka - Amaterase

End Credits:

One Year, Six Months - Yellowcard

Yea, none of those really work. Oh well.

So, for the first time since August I went to Nocturne at Club Shampoo in Phili. It was a fuckin’ blast. I finally got up on one of the boxes and raved. I got several comments, mainly on my tail but I did have one guy come up to me and say he saw me on the box and that it was cute to watch me. I stood out rather well against the crowd, in mainly black. I wore my knee length pink and blue gypsy skirt, blue jeans, my pink Tokyo top, my blue and white arm warmers my BIG wolf tail and my black fleece hat with white ears. I also put my collar on and pinned my L pin too to. The funniest thing was walking into the Red Room and ending up stumbling in on 3 guys making out. That was interesting. I think I pulled a muscle in my left arm since raising and moving it hurts, right around my shoulder area.

However, I must say that with Nocturne… Tits and ass. My gawd. I forgot how many half naked chicks their are. Dear lordy.