Lucian And Darkki

Jui - Blue hooded female - AKA Rat, Fink, etc

MoMo - Black and white dalmatian or verigated rat - AKA Mo

Romeo - Albino - AKA Rome, Ice Bear

Rats are like potato chips, can’t have just one!

I know have three rats as I bought on of MoMo’s old cage buddies. He is an albino male who is currently nameless. MoMo and him got a nice new cage with a hammock and a box made into a little house. MoMo’s buddy is bigger than him so I believe him to be older but they get along great. Watching them play ratty tag is damned amusing.

It is amazing how people can make you feel like total shit for just a question. How they can make you feel like you are an unloving, vicious, bastard of a person. Things like this just make me want to give up on everything.

http://community.livejournal.com/ratties/6186305.html

That was the worst sleep I have gotten in awhile.  Here is how it played out.

I took a nap from 6:30-10 when Darkki called.

Talked to him until about 11:40 which is when I tried to fall asleep. I don’t remember what time he hung up but I was falling in and out of sleep and him hanging up woke me.

Was rolling around awake until almost 2am.

Finally got to sleep.

Woke up at 5, rolled around and kept fitfully looking at the clock (hoping I had fallen asleep again).

Fell asleep again and only got another 15-30 minutes of sleep.

I am so fuckin’ tired… I hope Mr. Pustie doesn’t want me to stay after school with him. I need to come home and just pass the fuck out.

I am tired but I can’t take a nap because of the simple fact I don’t have a comforter. I can only sleep (no matter how hot it is) covered from chin to toe in blankets. My reason? I have a belief nothing bad can happen to me if everything is covered by my blankets. No murder or anything else can hurt me when I am curled up under my blankets. I have no idea what sparked this belief but I do truly believe it.

There is only one other place I can sleep and feel safe, in his arms.

I will never understand people. How they can look at something so beautiful, so gorgeous and call it a demon, a monster, the Devil himself. I will never comprehend how people can think in the ways they do. How they can justify eradicating species after species, even using people who are supposed to save animals as weapons against them. I can only try and read, gape and grope at how anyone could do this. How anyone could look at a starved, struggling, bloodied animal in a trap, gnawing it’s own foot off and not feel a drop of sympathy for a fellow living creature. How they could come upon the body of a creature, bloated due to poison and decay and only see money. How could anyone find any JOY in chasing an animal until it is exhausted in a snowmobile or a PLANE and then shooting it. How anyone could not even think about crawling into a den and then DESTROYING the little, innocent pups within. How people can look at a creature, so loving, so devoted, so like us and see nothing but a pest, something to be shot and destroyed is beyond my comprehension.I bet a lot of these people scream and cry over abortion and stem cell research, crying murder and all. Yet, they sit there and try to abort an ENTIRE species…

Cruelty is something so INHUMANE that only HUMANS could be capable of it…

I’ve been having motivation issues lately. I don’t know if it is my sickness or what. I tried to work on my fursuit, I have one paw nearly done but I only worked for an hour today. I know the knot in my upper arm/shoulder had to do with some of it but I’ve felt useless lately. I have no urge to do anything. My depression is coming back quite viciously and I just want snuggles. I just want to sleep all day. There are times I want to go out but of course, there are always issues. We were supposed to go to Barnes and Nobles on Thursday. Said we’d go tomorrow. So thought we’d go Friday. We’ll go tomorrow. We’re not going today cause Jimmy has a party. So…. Yea. My parents do this with EVERYTHING.

Meh….

No I’m not dead, just lazy.  I’ve been oddly unmotivated to do anything lately.  If I could do anything it would be just chill out in the woods with some music (preferably with Lucian).  I just want to get back home.  I’m so tired of… pretty much everything at this point.  Oh well, someday…

I want booooooooobies!!

Boooooooooooooobies!!

I have a 102 fever, severe hip and knee pain, a headache, anywhere I touch hurts, my throat hurts, I have a horredous cough. It sucks.

My hips hurt so bad I can’t sleep….