So, I had an interesting experience today. I was walking around and out of nowhere I smelled a very familiar scent; The Ocean. God it made me miss home. When I was young, the ocean was such a cool place to go and I always wanted to go to the beach, but when I got older, I never went there unless I was upset. I don’t know if living on Cape Cod made something so beautiful and wonderful seem so normal and every day to me, but after hitting my teens, I really lost intrest. I would only go there if I was depressed or something. It is true what they say, about the ocean waves and their rythem really helping to sooth your emotions. When I was on leave for the first time, I drove to the little beach where I would hang with Jessiy. I guess you might say that back then I had some fun at that little beach, but then… we kinda just went there for someplace to hang and chat, and only once or twice did we actually go down to the water. As far as I remember, both those times were depressing. I know one of them started off with Jessiy bawling her eyes out in my front seat and proceding to tell me a whole bunch of her life history. Not a very happy story, but I did my best to comfort her. I drove by that same beach with Lucian, but never stopped. I wanted to, but I wasn’t sure how Lucian would take it, cause if I stopped, I was explaining why. I never loved Jessiy like I love Lucian… I’ve never loved anyone like I love Lucian, but I did love Jessiy, and I still care about her. I miss her as a friend, and I wanted to stop there and spend a moment, kinda like stopping at an old friends grave. Anyhow, back to the beach smell and why I started writing this whole thing. When that smell found me, I realized how little of my time I’ve taken to look at some of the more wonderful things right around me. I remember being on the beaches with Lucian, and how she thought the sunset, and the land, and the stars were all so beautiful. That really, brought back when I was younger, made me remember how wonderful they truelly are. Now I can’t wait to go visit them again, not because I’m upset, but because I’m happy, and I want to go take in the beauty of these places. You know, for a moment, thinking about the beauty of the Ocean and beaches where I came from, takes all the complexity out of life… makes it simple just for a second.
I am sorry but I am sick of people whining and bitching at me about not wanting to go to college and wanting to have kids when I am 18. I am NOT going to fuck up my life. I am going to be completely fine. I’m gonna work at Darkki’s dad’s coffee shop if he gets one while Darkki works at his job, whatever that may be and we will stay at his parent’s house until we get our own place (possibly with Nick). Everything will work out like it always does. Nothing has ever gone wrong with us and most likely never will. So really, people need to stop bitching. It is my own choice. Plus, if need be there is night school and online school.
My life. Not yours. So STFU.
Didja know zombies go OMNOMNOMNOM!?
Haha. I just started on my zombie werewolf so, yea. Mweeeeee!
…Rat has gas. It smells.
I didn’t know that rats could HAVE gas.
Boy names:
- Darian Cain B.
- Micah Jaden B.
Girl names:
- Dakota Mae B.
- Tala Leigh B.
Two for each because if we have twins who are the same gender. Also, those that come first will be first boy/girl.
I am sick of people asking me why…Why so young, why so soon? Wanna know the fuck why?
BECAUSE I WANT TO. I don’t know exactly why but I feel it in my heart that I want to. Why won’t people just accept because I want to or because I just do? Also, people. Stop looking DOWN on me for it. It’s my choice, I know the consequences, I know a kid is not a little doll to play with. I know they are people. I know this. Stop looking down on me for this choice!
So I just wanted to warn everyone about my ideas. If I have an idea about trying anything, THINK IT OVER TWICE! Then, after you think it over, seek an outside opinion. Some of my ideas are not da brightest. For instance, “I wonder what the rat would do with a vibrating sex toy.” That was not a bright idea. Remember, that I’ll try almost anything, and at times I can lack common sense. Also remember that when I do want an opinion, it’s normally coming from Lucian. Trying an idea that came from the combined minds of me and Lucian is probably a good way to get yourself injured. Just a little warning though.
I am all for animal rights, I am all for the abolition of unnecessary animal experimentation but what I just saw was…amazing.
A doctor transplanted the head of a monkey onto the body of another monkey. Now, the amazing part is it was a SUCCESS. The monkey was able to bite, see, breath, smell, etc etc. This was in attempt to see if the heads of paraplegics in decaying bodies could be put on the bodies of brain dead people in an effort to give them a more fulfilling life. Now, I highly doubt anyone could live knowing their body is not their own as in the case of the man who had the penis transplant. He had it removed due to the fact he could not stand having a dead man’s penis and was having mental issues.
I mean, things like this could benefit people and animals alike but…I dunno. I mean, without it some things would have never been discovered such as insulin which required the death of many a dog. Now it benefits both humans and animals.
I guess, if it benefits all then it is good. Humans only is iffy…Humans only require humans to be used. If it benefits both animal and human then it is justifiable to use both…I guess.
Note to self, do not put vibrators or other such sex toys in front of rats.
They DO NOT WANT.
Sometimes I just wanna lay in bed all day and play with my rat. I wonder if she realizes how much she means to me, especially over these past few months….