Lucian And Darkki

Current Mood: Mischievous

So yea, I never post.  Sorry.

I’m not very good at sticking with stuff.  I’ve been so busy with work and everything.  I’m still need to figure out marriage laws in Kansas and stuff.  I just put a server rack in my little room, so I’m totally blocked in here, there is no room for anything.  I don’t know why I got this thing, I just… wanted it.  My jeep is kinda working.  I ran it into a mud whole, like a 3 foot deep hole face first.  It was in bad shape, almost totally repaired though.  Lucian came out to visit, which is always great.  I love seeing mate, it’s always fun.  I want to find some pretty Kansas prairie to drive out into with her, but I think it’s all privately owned.  America is privately owned these days.  Oh well, this is my short little Darkki update.  Stay tuned.

Peace

Current Mood: Alarmed

Lately there is way to much happening at the same time.  I’m about to be out of the loop for a couple days for training.  With that going on Lucian got kicked out of her house shortly before and I’m trying to get Christmas ready, my trip home, finish my CSS book (which isn’t really the top of my list), study for a work thing in Janu… January (I think that’s right) and get back into college.  It’s just so overwhelming right now.  I’m glad Lucian is back at her house.  I know she’s not happy with it, but I was certainly not happy with her bumming a place to stay everynight.  With Vicky I’m cool, but aside from that I don’t know anyone else there that well and I’m not that trusting.  I’d also really like it if she would improve her relationship with her parents.  She can be so short with them.  I guess no one ever likes there parents when they are living with them under 18.  It’s like living in Soviet Russia, or some witty comparison like that.  Oh well.  Hopefully things will improve for her and I’ll visit and we’ll go out and she can relax with me.  Just a few months and she can move out if she wants and I can take care of her.  I’m trying to get back into college right now for my Microsoft Certified System Administrator.  While I’m doing that I’m finishing up this CSS book… well I’m half way, so not finishing up, but I’m working on it.  Then once that’s done I’m starting to study for CCNA and beyond.  Gotta get smart, so I can make that money.  I don’t think money is so important, but it certainly is nice.  Nicer than money is responsibility and working with technology, and nicer than anything is Mate.  Anyhow, back to my CSS, just a lil update for now.  Peace.

So like, I haven’t posted in forever.  Anyhow, I’m in Texas (work related).  Texas, is as boring, as Kansas.  Although, if I had brought my Jeep I’m sure I could have had more fun.  I’ve got a little Mazda 3.  I would strongly suggest no one gets a Mazda 3.  I mean, it’s not a bad car, but… it’s not good.  It doesn’t impress me at all, though it has intermittent wipers, BONUS!  I put some money in the stock market.  400 dollars in Fannie Mae.  Would have been great if the bailout passed.  I bought in at around 2.06 and the stock had rose to 2.64 in less than an hour… right before they original bailout plan was denied by congress, then poof, gone in minutes.  I’m holding onto it though, hopefully it will recover enough so I can get away without a loss.  I’m sure if I hold on long enough to it, it’ll recover.  I was really hoping to use the money for Christmas shopping.  I swear I’ve watched the first 4 seasons of Family Guy atleast 5 times.  Recently my Zune has started to need reset.  If you have a Zune, remember “Up + Back + 10 Seconds = Reset”.  It’s like Ctrl+Alt+Del.  I made friends with a co-worker out here, looks like he’s getting a Jeep now.  I’ve been shopping around with him.  Aside from all that, not much going on.  Got a new phone case for my Sidekick Slide (Foxxie and Crest just bought them too, right after me… now mine feels unspecial).  It’s RealTree.  I feel like a much better country boy now.  Just need to get a cowboy hat while I’m here.  Less than two weeks, and I’ll be with the mate.  Can’t wait to be with my love again.  That’s most of what’s going on these days.  Peace out.

Current Mood: Playful

Just a little update as I haven’t posted in a while.  I’ve been busy, both at work, and with everything else.  I got the dent out of my Jeep.  It looks great now, just needs painted.  Installed a new steering box which was hell.  Put it in, didn’t fit so I took it back out, made some modification (the screw holes were cross threaded on the actual box) and put it back in the next day.  I installed a steering box into my Jeep three times in two days.  The paint on the new box was a bitch too.  I painted it, didn’t like it, tried to repaint it, ruined the first job, stripped it, and painted it again.  I’m gonna try to get some recent pics of da Jeep up.  My buddy took my Zune as a joke, I called the cops.   That sucked.  Aside from that, work is going good for once.  I switched my Cell phone over to T-Mobile and got a sidekick so I can talk to Lucian more.   Me and Lucian have been fighting about where we are gonna try to live.  I’m worried about money and what we can afford, but she’s got her heart set on being away from cities in the country in a land locked state.  I don’t mind, but I’m just worried about making money and supporting her and a family.  I’m sure we’ll work it out eventually.  Anyhow, I’ll update more later.  I got lots more to do.  Life is always busy these days.

Lucian is gone, she flew out this afternoon, after a hole bunch of garbage that didn’t need to happen.  I’m so glad I got to have lunch with her, though I wouldn’t have personally chosen Hooters.  I really wasn’t the best mate while she was out here.  She deserved better than what I gave her and I feel crappy about the way I let things kinda just flop around and didn’t really grab hold of it and make sure my mate enjoyed herself.  Since she was visiting my area of the world, I really can’t blame anyone but myself for any disappointments she experienced.  Well, maybe a little blame on  my misserable occupational choices.  I hate it when she leaves, everything feels so empty.  I miss her so terribly, and I’m sure it’s the same for her.  I feel bad that I don’t cry infront of her, but I don’t know if I’m just a dick, or it’s part of that male thing.  I feel like I’m supposed to be strong and solid for her and as soon as I made it back to the car after she got on the plane I bawled.  Then I got back to the room we stayed in, and bawled some more.  Then I packed all the stuff, and looked at the empty room, and bawled.   Then I picked up my wet clothes she so nicely placed in plastic bags, and bawled some more.  She’s such a wonderful mate and I am so lucky to have her.  Next time we are together I hope I don’t waste a single moment being a lametard.  I mean, I could have filled all that time with unconditional loves and snuggling.   I really did enjoy her time out here.  My heart still hasn’t recovered from the thought of not having her in my life at all anymore, so the leaving on a plane was a double blow.  I’ll let her explain about her ALMOST DYING when she gets a chance.  Scared the everything outa me.  She’s still in the air.  So here is to her making it home safe.  Everything has been pretty shitty for me lately, sans the mate, all of the mate was wonderful.  I’m talking work wize and stuff.  I’ll talk more later.  Right now, I’m gonna go miss my mate and dream about ways to show how much I love her.

I AM A FURRY!

I admit it, I am a furry.

I, Darkki Wolf, am a furry.

Current Mood: Angry

Son, I have a little story for you, once upon a time, your clutch master cylinder failed and you won’t be able to get your Jeep into gear so you’ll probably be sitting at a gas station for a few hours.

So yea, I just got back from sitting at a Phillips 66 (the gas station) for like 2 hours.  My clutch stopped working.  It’s a hydrolic clutch and I made sure it had fluid and stuff.  It was full, so I didn’t suspect any air in the lines or a leak.  All I can think is the master cylinder pump failed.  Then, after two hours of cursing, tweaking and one attempt to drive with out a clutch (which I am no good at) it just started working again out of no where.  What kinda shit is that.  I finally got my top off and shit, and now other stuff starts breaking, and two days before I go to the offroad park with a bunch of people.  I’m gonna throw it up on the jack and look around a little more tomorrow.  Man I hope nothing is broke.

Current Mood: Sickly

Lately I’ve been having a lot of trouble sleeping.  Last night I went to bed around 11 and didn’t fall asleep until like 3 in the morning.  I have some medication that I was prescribed to help with my sleeping issues, but it’s an anti-depressant.  I’m really scared to start them, but I’m pretty much at the point where I have no choice.  It’s horrible cause I’m actually tired, and I want to sleep, but I just can’t.  There is so much I’m trying to work out and figure out.  On top of that, I really miss my mate.  Seeing her isn’t a want anymore, it’s become a need.  I really don’t know if I can stay sane right now without her.  I just feel like everything could be fixed if she was just with me at night.  Luckily, it looks like things might work out better than I had hoped with her visiting and stuff.  Don’t get me wrong, I’m still a poor bastard right now and real short on funds.  I did manage to scrape up an extra few dollars and pick up the bed liner to finish the inside of my Jeep.  Sometimes I feel really bad about spending so much time working on it, but I hope Lucian realizes that nothing tops her in my life, though when it comes to my few physical possessions my Jeep is my pride and joy (though my computer isn’t half bad either).  Anyways, I have a lot to do and a lot going on.  I’ll post up some more info on my happenings soon.

Current Mood: Happy

Alright, I haven’t put anything up here in a while.  It’s a combination of being lazy and busy.  I’m back out in Kansas if you didn’t know.  It took three weeks but I finally got Jeep.  So now me and my Jeep are in Kansas, without my mate sadly.  I miss her terribly.  We are trying to figure out how I can get her out to Kansas for a little bit.  I hope I can get her out here for a little bit.  I love being with my mate.  I put new lower control arms and brackets on my Jeep.  I did the control arms myself.  Yea… it was a lot more work than I thought.  I had to drive all over to get it aligned.  While I was driving around I rescued some old folks who had broken down.  Nice people, she slipped a 20 down my shirt.  I wasn’t sure if she was just trying to make me take it cause I kept saying no, or if she was coming on to me.  They were really nice though.  They must have been stopped for a bit.  It’s sad no one had already stopped.  Oh well, that’s the way things are these days.  Anyhow, it’s the fourth of July weekend.  I think I’ll try to get some fireworks.

Peace out.

I’m so in love with Lucian.  I love her so much.  Waking up next to her, it’s just so nice.  I can’t think of anything else I would rather see first thing in the morning…  She is so beautiful.